She is having some very difficult time in her life. Her life is not a bed of roses at the moment, and weirdly, it is neither bushes full of prickly thorns. In her own words, her life is like ... a vacuum of space.
She wakes up each morning, dreading what the day may brings. Which, most of the time, nothing. It is mentally torturing, emotionally draining, physically weakening to live a life with no excitement, no goals, no passion, no purpose, no motivations, no dreams, no hopes ... nothing, total emptiness.
She feels bad, and tired, and defeated. She is finding it harder and harder to talk to anyone, and sadly, this anyone includes God. Sometimes, the feeling of sorrow and hopelessness is so great and suffocating that she wished she could just end her life. But, I thank God that she, being a Christian for all these years, understands that commiting suicide is an absolute NO-NO, and life does not end by just leaving this earthly world.
Life still goes on for her, one painful step at a time. In her lost world, she sees nothing but total darkness, she hears nothing but deafening silence, she feels nothing but complete emptiness.
Today, when I looked into her eyes, I saw nothing but a soul silently crying out for help, and that breaks my heart. Lord, help me help her!
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